mel-li-ssa's Travelogue

Title: its hard to say goodbye..
Date: 2006-08-29
Time: 6:54 p.m.

i'm closing down this blog..
thanks darling.
you have been great for the past 2 years.
RIP. =D
i hope while reading the past entries..
it will bring back great memories..

as for me..
i'll be back when i get better..
heh.
i'm feeling like fuck.
the worst period of my life..
i've never felt like that before.
NEVER IN MY ENTIRE GOD DAMN LIFE.
it really sucks..

i wake up crying..
i go to bed crying..
when i study, i cry..
when i stone, i cry..
when i watch tv, i cry..
when i think, i cry..
whatever i do, i cry..
i've never cried so much in my entire life..
if you collect my tears, its enough to rain for a year.
haa.

i wish..
i pray..
i hope..
that things will get better..
but no..
i feeling worst as each day goes by..
i thought i could get over it..
i thought i wouldnt feel a thing..
but in reality..
my heart is being stabbed 100000 times..
fuck.

i really dont know what i should do..
really dont..

God..
please save me and bring me out of this..
i dont want to suffer anymore..
i dont want to feel anymore..

maybe its my fault..
maybe it isnt..
but whatever it is..
its over..
i cant bring it back anymore..
its dead.
its the past.
its over.

if you havent already guessed..
i broke up with henry..

thanks for everything..
all the best..

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